Dreams: A reflection of Reality or an Omen?

It has been some time since I update this blog. I utilized my days completely by doing everything and anything. Thus, it wasn't long before this body fell ill. I feel tired everyday, but I enjoyed utilizing my time as this really made me feel usuable. I had always wanted to sleep more, but I felt that there's a need for me to care more and be more accounted for towards my responsibilities.

My dad told me before, we spent one-third of our life sleeping, its better to utilized this time than sleeping. However, that is also the reason why people who are about to die tends to sleep lesser.

I had this dream recently; it was very scary but it is also very realistic. This dream came in many versions over several times. The scenario goes like this: I was walking down the stairs, when suddenly I missed a step and I felt my leg was being pulled. I woke up immediately and my leg was in a position being pulled.

Another scenario I could remember vividly was that I was playing basketball. Just when I happened to be taking a jump shot, my leg was pulled down. I woke up immediately and realized this was yet another dream.

To me, it was kind of freaky however, I felt that it was the recent lack of exercise that made my body works abnormally and happens to shiver or vibrate as and when it likes. In addition, I feel strains and tears along my shoulders and back. A lousy ankle that feels like sprain but isn't sprain.

Whatever it may be, I hope to completely utilize my everyday to the fullest. As I was recently taught, "Instead of finding excuses to avoid responsibility first, just give it your best shot to fulfill your responsibility. Only when you fail, you start looking for excuses."

bad influence

I am seriously sorry that I have misuse the trust given to me by my juniors in this Camp Embed. I seriously had no idea that my actions and words have caused so much unhappiness among juniors. I have nothing else but Sorry to say and I will never ever do it again.

Da Jie episode 2

This picture shows Christine Da jie and me holding our caricatures while attending a PAYM lunch along with Asilah, Hui Ping, Siti, Eddie and Farhan.

Name of product: Christine Da jie

Characteristics: Dedicated, Enthusiastic, Aspiring and Decisive LEADER.

History in the making: For the past few years, she has led me to more and more challenges. For example, she challenges me to take up the National Youth Achievement Award (and I swear I will never do it again). In addition, she introduced me to a MUCH more motivating leader and savior, Ms Ong Ying Shya. I certainly have no one else but Christine to thank for she has enlighten me on what is fear.

In the following year, I just happen to be slacking at home just before my birthday. Suddenly, I received a call from Christine. "Hey Damien, we got free tickets to the latest movie, Happy Feet." Being a cheap bastard, I naively joined them.From then on, I realized that I am one of the YEC members. Christine has once again taught me that something about life. "There's no such thing as free lunch in this world."

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Da Jie episode 1

This is a picture of my NYPSU senior, Chak Hui Ping and ME.

Much known to many of us, she has been a Friendly, Understanding, Caring, Kind, Enthusiatic and Reasonable senior. I am GREATLY indebted to her as she gave me my first event out of nowhere. Thanks to her too, she has set up a few challenges and tasks for me so that I would mature to be a better man. Although these challenges put my second year's life into a jeopardy, but now, I feel more positive while being sadistic and tormented. She has also invented an unique way of transmitting information into her peers' head physically, effective and efficiently.

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My birthday

I haven't got hold of all the pictures yet, but this is a picture of my brothers and me.

I am damn touched by my two sisters, Jet and Grace. My elder sis didn't even think twice when I asked her to attend my bdae with my friends. In addition, she bought finger food for all my friends. I am seriously touched. I can't help but cry immediately, I am crying while type all these. My little sister gave me a little phone accessory of the boy who pee to save his country, forgot what is its name. I love my sisters. I feel guilty now.

I am damn touched that my best brothers from my secondary school, Fuhua secondary 4E of 2003. They came all the way down from the west area to say "hi." They are Wei liang, Eric Soh, Michelle, Alex and Jason. They gave me a wallet and some Naruto figurines. The presents aside; I am damn happy just to see them.

I don't really know who bought the dumb bells for me, but I am seriously stunned. I hurt my back while receiving the dumb bells. Thank you, JIN HUI, Sri, Siti, Sze Kee, Jean, Zara, Candice, Jie Ying, Hui Ying, Ken Ken, Stacey, Grace and Asilah. Including my best pals from Union, I was damn happy to see Yong Siang, Wei Siang, Wei Ming, Kelvin, Lucaz, Alex, Leonard and Eddie to be here. What else can I ask for? Sorry, alert me if I miss out any names.

My best brothers Clement and David along with Alex (maybe more people) gave me a Nike dry-fit t-shirt and basket ball pants. Thinking of these, I cried another 5 minutes. *salute*

The senior gang turn up. They are Christine, Hui Ping, Gerlyn, Lee Hui, Alan, Wei Ming, Ming Wei, Chi Ho and Roy. They gave me a superman shirt which looks stunning on me, although I already am.

This was one of the toughest blog, I cried my way through this. I know this has completely destroyed the tough guy image. The only regret was that I didn't take pictures perhaps I was too busy to realize that. Please let me know if I left any names out and sorry if I did.

My Birthday

This is the first time I am not posting any pictures along. Sorry dudes, Kinda lack of the feeling to do post any pictures up.

It has now come to the most dreaded time of the year for me. I don't really like my birthday, but I felt this is a very good time to say everything before I graduate.
This is gonna sound quite unlike me.

So guys, If you don't want to read anything that changes my image which is already quite bad please press alt + f4. Thank you

10 things that I really want for my birthday:

1) A real friend who is so optimistic whom I can confide everything to him.
Why? I may have alot of brothers and sisters around me, a network that is surprising big (even to me), but I always have this lonely feeling. I don't know why.

2) Forgiveness for being such a bastard.
why? I have always been a bastard, perhaps this was to prevent myself from getting bullied.

3) A slap on the face by Yi Ling.
why? I think this will some how ease my conscience.

4) A day where everybody call me Wen Han.
why? I have too many names, too many a such that I feel like having an identity crisis.

5) A moment my dad compliments me.
Why? My dad has never compliment me once in my life.

6) Maybe a set of dumbells which i can chat with every night.
why? The lonely nights that I spend on MSN could be replace with something else.

7) Being surrounded by my secondary school classmates and poly friends.
Why? I am an easily contented guy who values friendship.

8) More decisiveness.
why? I have been hesitant for the past 19 years; Its time I pick up my responsibility.

9) A life that would not be bullied by others.
why? I have been bullied all my life, by primary school mates, neighbours, secondary school mates and relatives.

10) A new shelve for my books to be placed on.
why? My shelves are full thats why.

Taiwan

This is a picture of me when I was in Taiwan. The guy at the utmost left is Joseph, a guy I know from the trip. The middle guy is just a soldier who has just finished his guard duty. By now anyone should have notice that their helmet is damn SHINY!!! It is so incredible to even wear that. It is so shiny that I cant help but keep looking at it. Their soldiers are very cool too. They march like horses and move like robots suffering from rust.

Taiwan is definitely a fun place. It seems that our media likes to make it sound so messy due to the political issues. However, judging from a relative who has just came back from Taiwan told me that it is still quite stable. I will go to Taiwan again sometime soon. It is a very fun place.

Car inspection

This picture shows me carrying my cousin's son, Yong Jie.

During my days in Vicom, I learn alot of un-related to business stuff. Be it locations of thai discos, singapore national service biggest cock ups and even which Buddha to pray to first when you enter the temple. The inspectors also created a lot of funny tage lines of the car company names, such as

Twice Overhaul Yearly Or Throw Aaway (Toyota)

Hold On N Do Again (Honda)

Never Trust Union Chief (NTUC)

First/Failed In All Test (FIAT)

Best Man Wins/ Be My Wife (BMW)

Cancer Society in India (CSI)

Overhauling Price Especially Low (OPEL)

Very Interested Collecting of Money (VICOM)

I seriously learn a lot of rubbish stuff there, but there are also times I really enjoyed myself as the inspectors like to entertain us.

Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory.

This is Eddie and me during NYPSU commissioning 2006. Eddie is a nice guy that likes acting cute and never really shows his true emotions even when he is shy, embarrassed or even when he is sad. For my female friends out there, he is available at a very reasonable price of ONLY 5 RUPIAH!!!. Please expect MULFUNCTIONS as this product may go haywire at times. Contact me at any way possible, while stock lasts. (batteries not included)

I learn this very important thing while I was witnessing a power struggle in an organisation. It is not about get praises by doing things right, it is about getting ourselves wounded and learning from the mistakes we made. Never be afraid of making a mistake in the process. What is important is that at the end of the day, we learn our mistakes and make some new friends.

Mid-Autumn festival aka "mooncake" festival

This is a picture of my brothers and me. We celebrated Eric (The one in orange)aka Erica's bdae at a canal behind our secondary school, Fuhua sec. It was a bloody hazy place to eat a cake but it was still fun to have brothers around.

Behind Eric is Wei Liang aka Winnie. Next to Wei Liang is Ming Shi aka Michelle. Next to Ming Shi is me, aka wendy and the biggest face in front is alex who has yet to get a feminine name.

They are all the best classmates/Brothers I ever had since secondary 3. And to add on, we are all very lame people. Although it doesn't seems like it, but I am the youngest among them.

IMF and Polyforum

This is a picture of Yong Siang and me during our day of commissioning.

Events are not all about getting things done, they are also about making friends. From these two events, I have experienced great friendship with other clubs. Known to many, the IMF world bank conference in Singapore was a very massive project. Thus, many of us poly students were mobilise to be BUS HOSTS! We all know it is a nicer term for tour guides and it is a rubbish job; however, this was one of the most memorable events I have in NYP. I stayed overnight in school for 5 nights just for this event and woke up around 5am each day to get ready; but I reall made new friends from this event.

They are none other than wushu club members of NYP. We all share a similar mentality just that our interests are in a different direction. I am not sure if I spell their name correctly but they are Chun Long, Perlin and Anthony. Ah Long looks just like any uncle at the coffee shop, but he's an magician in practise and laugh damn loudly. Perlin is a tiny cute girl who comes from a family of vegetarians, and has this really scary voice. Anthony is this old guy who looks young and likes buying breakfast for Clement and me. They are a bunch of nice and noisy people.

Theother event was the polyforum. I am absolutely disgusted by the way RP planned this event, RP = Retarded/Rubbish Poly. However, it was through this event I met a few friends from Chinese Orchestra of NYP. They are another bunch of funky people who have different interest but similar mentality. They are Jacqueline, He Qiang, Wei Lin and Alex. Almost everynight after polyforum, we would meet up and gossip. It is almost like an unofficial CO and SU meeting.

I seriously won't mind another few of these rubbish events after my IPP.

Getting Rusty

Both my body and verbal skills are getting rusty. Its time to trained up my body and get back in form. Lately, I have also been quite "hold back" when I am shooting someone verbally, I have lost the power of killing one with my words. Think it is also about time to find one sacrifice and scold him or her to trained back my skills. hahaz. We live in a cruel world, don't we?

Attachment days and sexism.

I am currently attached to Vicom Car Inspection Centre to do market research. It sounds ridiculous as what does a Retail & Travel student got to do with market research aka surveying? I have been doing these surveying thingy for SBM of NYP for the pass few years. Now, I am going to do it again?!?! Oh my god.

Thank god the people there smiles; although I am not really sure whether they are faking the smiles or smiling genuinely. Hmmz, I think I have to tolerate all the way through till the end of this attachment. I seriously hope that I would be still mentally sound and alive at the end of this attachment.

Lately, I have been receiving mails of sexism. I would not disclose any information about this sender, but I hope she really wakes up and realise that she needs another GIRL DESPERATELY.

I am seriously wondering how much juniors in student union survive. Currently, from what I have been observing; they have around 70% luck and about 20% skill and 10% hardwork. Thous shall not make comments about thy new positionings, but I hope they will do their best in their future endeavors in Union while balancing with their academic work.

My sis graduation

This photo was taken on Sunday in which my sister dragged the whole family to NUS to take her graduation photos. It was a very comfortable Sunday morning whereby I know that I can sleep for another 3 or 4 hours longer, but then, I was dragged out of the house somehow.

Upon the arrival at NUS, we started taking photos besides a stairway at this cultural centre in NUS. Next we moved on to the flowers and grass outside the cultural centre. Soon the family was divided into two parts whereby one part is busy taking photos with my sister, whereas the other part was busy entertaining my cousin's son, a toddler, Yong Jie. He is very cute when he laughs or smiles.

The SHOCKING truth

My DAD ask me to use MARTELL to BATHE?!?!? I was thinking, "wow, that's so cool but so, ermz, spendthrift?" I was so shocked he said that but I was even more surprised when I learnt that my elder sister and I used up a bottle of MARTELL to wash our HAIR before. It started with my elder sister followed by me and we eventually used up the whole bottle during my elder sister's upper primary days. I can't believe this, WHY DIDN'T I DRINK IT THEN???

My mom told me that I sleepwalk frequently when I was young, thus, she would stay outside my door to make sure that I wouldn't sleepwalk in the middle of the night. There was this time whereby I sleepwalk in the middle of the night, from I heard from my mom, she said that I packed my bag, brush my teeth and even BATHE!!! I can actually sleep through all of that? I am simply amazed that I this history. I seriously wonder what other stunts have I done before in my sleep.

Image it

I did some major editing before I posted this picture. You can try finding out what I did to it. Whoever can guess it, I will treat her to a cup of tea. Here's something interesting I got from my secondary school's brother, Eric soh'sfriendster.

Learning Hokkien is easy...

Children is gina kia

Bird is jiao kia

Give birth is seh kia

Police is mata kia

Small house is chu kia

I am hokkien kia

Malay is huan kia

Hindu is kit leng kia

Malaysian is jiu hu kia

JApanese is jit pun kia

Bad guy is pai kia

Good guy is ho kia

Korean car is Kia

Furniture is Ikea

Handphone is Nokia

Person who read tis is Gong kia..

if u laugh now. u are SIA0 KIA..haha

SEE LEARNING IS EASY!!!

Fill in the following blank with "Yes" or "No"
a) ______ , I don't have a BRAIN.
Who said english easy

Deep thoughts

Lately I have been thinking, "Damien, you need a girlfriend. You can't stand being alone." But then when I think further, I ask myself ,"How am I going to keep this girlfriend? Will she run away from me?"

It is human nature to seek to have a certain "want" or "need", but once you possess it, you will be afraid of losing it. I am starting to think I am not matured enough in terms of my mentality. There's just too much for me to learn and many other processes I have yet to go through.

I have come out with a quote saying ,"you can lose your faith, your courage, your money, but you musn't lose yourself." Its really pathetic not having a map of where you are and where you are heading towards.

Going through all these thoughts, I realized that I have two major weaknesses. Of them, one is that I am indecisive; I can't really make up my mind on what I want. Theother would be that I can't control my thoughts. I am unable to direct my thoughts towards something. These weaknesses are very fatal for a business student to possess.

K box session

This is one of my family photos. It looks very blur as I use a camera to take a picture of the original photo.

Starting from the extreme left to right: you could see my elder sister, Jet. She looks more presentable now (trust me). She used to look older than me, but somehow things change when I enter my secondary 3 life.

Next is my mom, Mdm Tan carrying my little sister. My mom is a great cook equipped with general knowledge of the household Dos and Don'ts. My little sister, Grace now looks skinnier but a lot taller. She used to be so naive and cute, but she somehow managed to grow a "dark side" during the recent years when we moved to Hougang. She has became an irritating monster who knows how to play the "Gu Zheng." ("Gu Zheng" is a Chinese instrument that has a lot of strings and is played using your fingers.)

Next is my Dad, Mr. Teong. My relatives told me that I inherited his looks. I have to agree to a certain extent as he does look handsome (that means so do I). However he has aged a lot compared to the period of time this photo was taken. By the way, my Dad is a great gambler but I am nowhere near his standards.

Next is me. I used to look very naive, blur but obedient; however, looks can be deceiving. Moreover, I have matured into something that looks entirely different from that time. I believe most of us would agree to the fact that my face looks entirely different.

In the middle is my father's mother, my Granny. I don't really share much memories with her; but I do know that my Dad learnt gambling from her. I heard she was a queen of gamblers; but, that is also where all my family debts comes from.

It has been a long time since we had our last K Box session.

Together with Candice, Jean and Eddie, we went to Hougang Plaza's K Box today. It was tiring dragging ourselves there, but I am sure we had a great time, although Eddie's loud hailing voice isn't easy to tolerate. Accompanied by some static sounds from the lousy mic, Eddie definitely won the most irritating voice of the year. However, I must admit that I had a great time laughing at him.

During that few hours in the K Box, it did dragged me away from my projects. It was definitely worth my 14 dollars for that 3 hours screaming and shouting in that enclosed area.

I am going for another game of basketball tomorrow, However, I am not sure if my body can withstand my vigorous movements in the court.

Let us all work hard towards our goals.

A broken body

A picture of me at East Coast Park attending a BBQ organized by Wan Ting for the Gunung Tahan team. It was quite fun, we have a lot of food. However, the taxi fare on that day was $30.10 due to midnight charge.

I had this basketball match on last Friday. The matched I had were just fantastic. They are among the best games I have so far. I managed to picture some moves and stunts which I would be able to do in the future.

However, the adverse effects of these games were pretty painful as I hurt my back and every muscle in my legs. These injuries have been haunting me for the past 2 years. It is like a long-term liability on my body, a physical limitation.

With an additional skin irritation, I think I am going to break down soon.

I am just eager to find out how long more can this body goes on.

Body status: painful shoulders, haunting backache, dying thigh muscles, weak knee, useless ankles and a bunch of brittle bones.

One thousand reasons to be sad.

This picture was taken around 3 years ago. My mom was quite enthusiastic when the MC asks the crowd to help their son or daughter to change their ranks.

I was singing this "One thousand reason to be sad" while walking to the kitchen. Then my mom told me this ,"no money, not enough money, no girlfriend, all these really can add up to a thousand." That was very sarcastic of her to say those, but I feel that I would say something like that to my son if he was singing that song in front of me.

My mom is a sarcastic woman that can be a hypocrite at times. An example would be that she portrays a very nice image to my nonsensical paternal side of my family who are all Malaysians, but when they are gone, she would tell me a lot of bad stuff about them.

My elder sister is a human that is annoying, irritating and have the desire to kill anyone with her words. My younger is young at an age of 12 picking up a skill, "irritating people".

My Dad is a stubborn man powered by anger. My dad is a package deal, he has a strict and stern face but is playful when playing with toddlers; typically those type that has a hard exterior that is soft inside.

So here is the question, "what am I"?

I am stubborn at times, a hypocrite in nature and surrounded by an aura of anger and sarcasm; but I am starting to feel that it's kinda alright to have these characteristics in me. I am who I am, there's no shame having characteristics that resemble my family.

My family rocks.