My time: end of a tunnel?

This is a picture of my cousin's (William) son, Yong Jie aka Oscar!!!!

Finally my MC is coming to an end. It will be ending this Friday, 12th September 2008. I sincerely hope that my body will recover to what it was a year ago. I realize that I have wasted 11 months of my time recovering from this rubbish illness. I ain't fully recovered yet as I am still on drugs and my body still trembles a lot.

Life have been lonely thus far, but I have been reading this book ,"the 48 laws of power." In general, this book corrupts one's mind to the extreme, leaving no space for purity or innocence. So you can probably imagine me squatting in a corner of my room coming up with ideas to manipulate humans or dominating the world.

The aftermath of reading this book is that I realized that I don't really need friends for friendship as I slowly find no use of them other then going for movies together. I feel more independent, empowered and perhaps a bit more confident to handle stuff on my own. The trade off for power and authority ultimately is still emotions. Emotions are not just a liability but also an irrational burden. 

 something less serious is that I have passed my final theory today. It makes no sense that I took 3 tries for basic theory and only once for advance theory. But then again, common sense or logic cannot be used to forecast my results. :p

I read about 2 differences between humans and animals that embeds in my mind permanently. Hunters are able to hunt and kill animals as they studied their behavior, their habits, their diet and their movements, in general, their patterns. That's what ease the hunter's job, the knowledge of the animal's patterns. Humans are the only animals that are able to shape shift their patterns. Yet many of us chose to live in the comfort of routines and standard patterns, which slowly makes this people the prey.
Humans are illogical, emotional and irrational. No one on earth is probably able to live without these traits. However, these are what makes us humans. No human being is completely rational as everyone will make human errors once in a while.